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🕯️ About the Castle I am the castle. These halls creak with memory. Some walls have wept. Some still do. Each room you enter here each piece of writing—is something I couldn’t keep inside any longer. My thoughts live like dust in the corners. My stories breathe through the cracks. You’re not just reading… you’re wandering through me. You’ll find: Diary pages dressed up as poems Holy things broken and glittering on the floor Flirty whispers tucked between grief There is pain here. But there is also hope. Somewhere between the ache and the softness, the candle never quite goes out. If you’ve come looking for something quiet and real—welcome. I won’t give you answers. I’ll give you rooms. Some may be locked. Some might know your name. Stay a little while. Or longer.
  • No Other Way

    No Other Way

    Forgive me, but I must tell you this.

    There is not another way.

    You have to go through it.

    You cannot numb the pain because it will come back twice as hard.

    Breathe. Endure the pain one millisecond at a time.

    Cry, scream, stay here on earth.

  • Wound

    Wound

    They say it gets better,

    But in this moment it feels like everybody’s fucking lying.

    One day though, not far, we will wake up not hurting as much anymore.

    We will find joy in little moments of our daily life.

    We’ll laugh a little and question, “why was I in so much pain?”

    We’ll realize that we’ve healed a little bit;

    And the next day will be the same.

    Eventually one day we will be fully healed and laugh and laugh.

    It will only be a memory;

    it will only be a scar and not an open wound.

  • Last Little Note

    Last Little Note

    Dear Joseph,

    You have brought me so much joy in the little time that I’ve known you.

    I want to tell you that I love you.

    I loved you the very moment you put on that movie for me to watch while you went to shower.

    I cannot explain how that brought me sheer comfort and familiarity.

    I was home with you.

    Thank you for your time, your conversations, the laughter, the comfort and the peace you gifted me.

    It will never be forgotten.

    I cherish you with my life.

    Thank you Mr. Parka

  • HeartBreak Pain x2

    HeartBreak Pain x2

    Can I tell you that this was not suppose to happen;

    I was not suppose to fall in love with you.

    I just wanted a fling, a moment of relief for my pain,

    But then you gave me comfort, peace and relief;

    Day after day you gave me the things I that needed most.

    I find myself in pain once again because it ended between you and I.

    Why does this hurt more than my original break up?

    Why do my bones hurt when I wake up in the morning?

    Why can’t I function during the day?

    What did you do my sweet fling?

    How can you be so buried inside of me?

    Come back to me;

    Help me once again to relieve this pain.

  • Truth Be Told

    Truth Be Told

    I opened the DM

    It was from one of your best friends

    Let your mind go wild with that information.