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🕯️ About the Castle I am the castle. These halls creak with memory. Some walls have wept. Some still do. Each room you enter here each piece of writing—is something I couldn’t keep inside any longer. My thoughts live like dust in the corners. My stories breathe through the cracks. You’re not just reading… you’re wandering through me. You’ll find: Diary pages dressed up as poems Holy things broken and glittering on the floor Flirty whispers tucked between grief There is pain here. But there is also hope. Somewhere between the ache and the softness, the candle never quite goes out. If you’ve come looking for something quiet and real—welcome. I won’t give you answers. I’ll give you rooms. Some may be locked. Some might know your name. Stay a little while. Or longer.
  • You Want Me

    You Want Me

    Don’t pretend that you don’t want me
    Clear through the pain I see
    that you’re pretending
    not to love me

    I know that you know
    Who this soul is for

    I can’t help but to laugh
    At the math

    That You did in your head
    It would be better to have her in your bed

    Then me in your sweet dreams
    Don’t lie to me please

    You cannot deny
    our soul tie
    Even though you said goodbye
    Deep you know that I qualify

  • Stay

    Stay

    I do not want to be alone tonight

    Please just stay here with me

    You do not have to touch me

    I just need your presence

    Although, my inner thighs burn for more than your presence

    Stay

    I do not want to be alone at this moment

    Please stay and fill my void

    You can touch me

    I need to know you are here

    Frankly, I want you inside of me

    Stay

    I cannot stay alone tonight

  • Mourn

    Mourn

    It’s a death.

    Heartbreak is a death.

    Mourn.

    Can you feel the swirl of deep distress ?

  • Heartbreak in the Bones

    Heartbreak in the Bones

    Why hasn’t anyone told me that there are some heartbreaks that we can get over quickly and that there are some heartbreaks that seep into our bones.

    It has buried deep in my bones where I am not able to move;

    I cannot think nor function.

    This type of heartbreak has limited my bodily movements;

    Yet, I can’t even stay in the same position.

    It’s an unsettling feeling of mental and physical pain.

    I would do anything, anything, anything to get rid of this anguish.

    The thought of going to heaven a little early seems delightful.

  • endure

    endure

    en ᐧ dure

    verb

    suffer (something painful or difficult) patiently.

    pa·tient·ly

    adverb

    tolerance of delays, problems, or suffering without becoming annoyed or anxious.

    What does the dictionary know *smh*

    I will endure

    I will suffer

    I will have some tolerance

    Though it’s going to come with a whole lot of kicking, crying, screaming and anxiousness.