Why Halloween?

The reason why I love Halloween season has nothing to do with dressing up nor with seeking the thrill of being scared.

When I was six years old my father left my mother with three young girls. Being the oldest of the three I felt a heavy responsibility, Halloween was the day that I could distract my mind. Halloween was the first “holiday” of the holidays that ended the year.

At the time my mom’s younger sisters were teenagers and they made Halloween an event we would never forget and haven’t forgotten. We were their little dolls, our aunts would dress us up in all kinds of costumes. They would hype Halloween so much I can still remember the scent around the house, I can still remember the energy and the emotion that filled the halls of the house. That one day, October 31st was usually the day I would be free from missing my father, I didn’t have any worry other than worrying if I was going to have plenty of room in my bag for candy.

Year after year Halloween became a delightful chocolate truffle I enjoyed.

Today as an adult I am chasing after that Halloween high. I seek the same scent, the energy and the emotion I  had when I was little.

Negative-

Currently.

Honestly.

We don’t have any money.

I do not even have $20 in my bank account. I am worried about paying our bills. I am worried about being negative in the bank. I’m worried about not having enough money to continue with my Halloween decorating this season.

Christian really makes this “hard moment” so much fun. He has made laying in bed talking about nothingness a moment I will cherish forever.

And then God provides, like HE always does.

It’s Time

We don’t know anything about time.

When people say, “oh it’s perfect timing“-they mean …

that whatever happened at the time it happened, happened at a time that was convenient for them not even aware of God’s timing.

God’s time seems not so perfect to us as humans, but it is PERFECT and it is the GREATEST time of all.

I now look at my life and see that everything fell into place at God’s perfect time. I did throw some tantrums here and there because I thought God didn’t know what He was doing.

All though this is not the end I cannot help but rejoice that I haven’t taken time into my own hands.
At a perfect time I traveled, I have found the man of my dreams and after a couple of careers I finally found the career I enjoy.

P.S.

Between you and I, being a step mom is wonderful BUT I am relying on God’s perfect timing to have a child of my own.

R A W

I was inspired to do a look by heartbreak.

When we go through a break up (as a woman) honestly no one wants to get-up-and-get ready and look nice all one wants to do is be in their pajamas eat ice cream and watch a movie.

Or at least that’s what I did for about a good 2 years after one of my breakups; which was a miserable time and a wasted time spending crying for somebody else. It’s pointless I should have just taken day cried it all out and then let go, but no I tortured myself for 2 years that was ridiculous-now that I think of it.

So for my model’s look I wanted a very organic, but beautiful melancholy look. I wanted for the make up to POP and let her eyes tell the story.

So here I used ELF EYEBROW KIT to do her freckles. For her eyebrows I used the ANASTACIAS PENCIL in Medium. Her lips, a very bold color off camera, JEFFREY STAR’s 714 Velour Liquid Lipstick. I used rose water to set everything.

I am very happy with this look.

Here are some candid shots: