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🕯️ About the Castle I am the castle. These halls creak with memory. Some walls have wept. Some still do. Each room you enter here each piece of writing—is something I couldn’t keep inside any longer. My thoughts live like dust in the corners. My stories breathe through the cracks. You’re not just reading… you’re wandering through me. You’ll find: Diary pages dressed up as poems Holy things broken and glittering on the floor Flirty whispers tucked between grief There is pain here. But there is also hope. Somewhere between the ache and the softness, the candle never quite goes out. If you’ve come looking for something quiet and real—welcome. I won’t give you answers. I’ll give you rooms. Some may be locked. Some might know your name. Stay a little while. Or longer.
  • The DMs | Part 1

    The DMs | Part 1

    @real_baller4277 I see you changed your profile pic how are you?

    @inthiscastle Isn’t that what people do? Change their profiles? I’m good btw

    @real_baller4277 I guess they do. Hows your brother

    @inthiscastle good. Dont you have his number?

    @real_baller4277 I do I do we haven’t spoken in a while. But is it wrong to contact his little sister for information?

    @inthiscastle um no it is not wrong, but you can cut out the middle man

    @real_baller4277 Well that’s no fun. How have you been? Before you answer I don’t mean to be disrespectful in anyway to you, your husband or your marriage. I am just curious as to how the life of Castle has continued. It’s been a while.

    @inthiscastle Thank you same to you honestly. I get curious about you and if you truly are happy. I always want you to be good. I don’t know why I have to say this but I am good, going one a health journey. I am willing to answer any questions you have for me since we haven’t spoken in so long. It’s good to go down memory lane with someone you cared/care about you know?

    NEXT DAY

    @real_baller4277 Sorry I was at work, but man its so good to hear from you.

    @inthiscastle Ok I’ll let you work

    @real_baller4277 It’s not that you are bugging at all, just a lot of talking at my job and barely looking at my phone. 😔

    These messages are great to see like little surprises 🤩

    @inthiscastle 😊

  • I Finally Recognized Your Pattern

    I Finally Recognized Your Pattern

    I finally recognized your pattern. You get bored with your relationship and decide to venture out into mine. Subtly you reach out to see how I am doing, like a curious old friend. Day by day you look for me until we get comfortable again…

    THEN

    You interrupt my life; my thoughts. You seem to push through my heart, push your way in between my legs.

    The most infuriating thing is that I let you. I let you mess up my conscience and my marriage.

    I saw it this last time, I finally woke up from the slumber you put me in. I finally recognized your pattern. Once you see that I am falling apart in all aspects, you don’t sext, you don’t call, you don’t even look at me when I see you at the grocery store playing house with your spouse.

    I am left alone in my feelings, I am left alone with the broken pieces. I am left alone to ask for forgiveness in my marriage. I am left alone to wait for the next time.

  • Update 07/21/2022

    Hi friend,

    I will be back soon. Don’t leave me.

    I needed some time to learn about myself.

    Look out for August, some posts are coming your way.

  • Hi Family

    I have been away. Out of the country.

    I find it difficult to be on a phone or computer when there is so much to experience.

    So for now dear reader, I leave you with this.

    There is something out there.

    Something so familiar.

    You know HIM.

    He is waiting for you.

  • NOT AFRAID

    NOT AFRAID

    I am afraid of many many things,

    but one thing I will never be afraid of is to be without you.

    I am not afraid to be single.

    I am not afraid to start over.

    I just thought you should know