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🕯️ About the Castle I am the castle. These halls creak with memory. Some walls have wept. Some still do. Each room you enter here each piece of writing—is something I couldn’t keep inside any longer. My thoughts live like dust in the corners. My stories breathe through the cracks. You’re not just reading… you’re wandering through me. You’ll find: Diary pages dressed up as poems Holy things broken and glittering on the floor Flirty whispers tucked between grief There is pain here. But there is also hope. Somewhere between the ache and the softness, the candle never quite goes out. If you’ve come looking for something quiet and real—welcome. I won’t give you answers. I’ll give you rooms. Some may be locked. Some might know your name. Stay a little while. Or longer.
  • VOID

    VOID

    I can’t cry

    I can’t sleep

    sigh

    I am numb

    I am absent

    come

    I am confused

    I am broken

    blues

    What is this

    What happened

    miss

  • Daniel Cheated

    Daniel Cheated

    And that is how I found out my boyfriend of 6 years was cheating on me. Call it whatever you want, but I had this heavy uneasiness in the pit of my stomach. I had confronted him 2 nights before and he claimed I was imagining things. He said “why would I ruin our 6 year relationship babe? Don’t be silly”

    But I think he couldn’t live with another day knowing that I knew. I just knew.

    Since we didn’t live together (thank God) I changed my phone number, blocked him from my socials and I never spoke to him again.

    It was the most painful thing I have ever done, because I just wanted to forgive him and stop the hurt of being alone.

    But it was also the best decision I had ever made in my life.

    Later I found out he got married with the woman he cheated on me with, but he is being unfaithful to her with his co worker.

  • Dear Derek,

    Dear Derek,

    Dear Derek,

    I think about you from time to time. And with each time, along comes guilt. I feel guilty for breaking your heart. I don’t blame you for disappearing from my life.

    Derek I wish I could tell you, how much I regret choosing him instead of you. But maybe it was for the best because of what I did to you; I got what I deserved; he broke my heart into glitter-sized pieces and it took me 2,920 days to heal.

    Derek I hope you are happy.

    Sincerely,

    Me

  • Who is reading this anyway?

    This is my diary. This is where I will write it all.

    Who is reading this anyway?

    This is where I write my confessions and expose the truth of what happened between me and him besides

    who is reading this anyway?

  • The DMs | Part 2

    The DMs | Part 2

    @real_baller4277 So do you not feel like talking?

    @inthiscastle Of course but wait does Daviana know you are messaging me?

    @real_baller4277 Can we just leave her out of it please

    @inthiscastle Ok yeah no problem

    @real_baller4277 Sorry 😕 We aren’t doing anything wrong you know. Just old friends messaging that’s all no biggy.

    @inthiscastle I know but why does it feel so wrong and also I don’t want to fall into the same thing as last time.

    @real_baller4277 Listen we don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do and anyway why do you let your mind get to that?

    @inthiscastle Ok, well then can I ask about your kids? How are they?

    @real_baller4277 You mean how is he. I still only have 1 kid. He is good I am the best dad in the world or at least I try to be with every ounce of myself. He is my blood, my child, my seed.

    @inthiscastle I 100% know you’re a wonderful dad, I don’t doubt it one bit

    @real_baller4277 So Where are you living these days? I heard you were by Mulberry Rd

    @inthiscastle Um yeah but who told you? 🕵🏻‍♀️ I remember last time you were in Oregon

    @real_baller4277 Yeah, but I am back home for like the last couple of months

    So how do you like that side of town? I spend a lot of time there for work and not a fan honestly.

    @inthiscastle I will message you tomorrow, my husband just go home.

    @real_baller4277 you little daredevil you hasta mañana