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🕯️ About the Castle I am the castle. These halls creak with memory. Some walls have wept. Some still do. Each room you enter here each piece of writing—is something I couldn’t keep inside any longer. My thoughts live like dust in the corners. My stories breathe through the cracks. You’re not just reading… you’re wandering through me. You’ll find: Diary pages dressed up as poems Holy things broken and glittering on the floor Flirty whispers tucked between grief There is pain here. But there is also hope. Somewhere between the ache and the softness, the candle never quite goes out. If you’ve come looking for something quiet and real—welcome. I won’t give you answers. I’ll give you rooms. Some may be locked. Some might know your name. Stay a little while. Or longer.
I Finally Recognized Your Pattern

I Finally Recognized Your Pattern

I finally recognized your pattern. You get bored with your relationship and decide to venture out into mine. Subtly you reach out to see how I am doing, like a curious old friend. Day by day you look for me until we get comfortable again…

THEN

You interrupt my life; my thoughts. You seem to push through my heart, push your way in between my legs.

The most infuriating thing is that I let you. I let you mess up my conscience and my marriage.

I saw it this last time, I finally woke up from the slumber you put me in. I finally recognized your pattern. Once you see that I am falling apart in all aspects, you don’t sext, you don’t call, you don’t even look at me when I see you at the grocery store playing house with your spouse.

I am left alone in my feelings, I am left alone with the broken pieces. I am left alone to ask for forgiveness in my marriage. I am left alone to wait for the next time.

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